Amongst Giants

Amongst neck craning eye squinting giants

foot steps crunch deep years of leaves and bark.

Steep banks tell tales of joy and woe,

silent red brown water slides past

topped by pelicans gliding

surveying the stranger.

Great red giants with girths of many steps

speak scars of other times

of canoe and coolaman, bowl and shield

of axe and saw, and wire barbed.

The silence brakes with fish splash

and fills with birdsong

Wind stirs leaves whispering a rustling chorus.

Sprouting twig dried leaves, dropped limbs

too hard to hold against raging storms

echo in their shape the sound of impact,

great red tears scream down mighty bodies.

Dappled shadows form cooling colonnades

the shadows revealing hidden worlds

each breath a magic vision

Stories told

Homes for those past and not yet here.

The stranger sits in, on and with the giants

Is held, nurtured, soothed.

Expansive river water slides on

Surface twinkling

A silent enduring presence.

About Labyrinths

Since retiring from High School Visual Arts teaching I have focused on teaching Yoga and Meditation in my local community. The labyrinth has called me and become a stronger part of my reality. Walking across the park near my home I saw in my minds eye a labyrinth in the grass. I had no idea that vision would lead to where it has now.


In July 2017 I found myself standing on a wild and windswept beach on the western coast of Islay, off the west coast of Scotland. I was there because the labyrinth locator said there is a labyrinth on this island. I was there because my great-great grandmother was born on this island. I was there because I’d set myself the task of walking a labyrinth a day across the UK during a two week visit. It was day four. I was at the beach that morning because the people who have the labyrinth on their land had been called to England on family business and I wasn’t able to visit them.


It was 9:30 am and raining, the wind was blowing. I could nearly distinguish the sky and sea. I stared out at the Atlantic seas – salt spray blurring my vision more. I had drawn my own labyrinth in the sand; a left turning, seven circuit classical labyrinth. The path marked, I stood at the threshold. Alone on this wild coastline, where the elements rage, home of my maternal ancestors, seat of the western edge of the ancient Viking Empire. I stood on that threshold took a breath and walked, oblivious of the weather. I followed my feet, shoes off, bare feet padding the sand, one step after the other- a lot like my entire labyrinth journey so far.

The labyrinth has become a journey, almost an obsession, an unfolding and reawakening. Since a friend and I made a labyrinth on my land in 2010, I have been following this thread. In Grace Cathedral, 2015, I stood in the center of the labyrinth, looked above and below, was washed by the sound of a bamboo flute-I felt it played for me – I cried tears of release and healing- I turned and returned to embrace my life. Each time I walk the labyrinth it is a pause, like the space between the in-breath and the out-breath and then returning from the center is a setting forth in to the future.

Finding the labyrinth in Sydney’s Centennial Park led to Emily Simpson when I was seeking support to create that labyrinth in my own community. Through Emily I found Veriditas. Completing my training at the summer school last year, Jan 2017, solidified my understanding and intentional use of the labyrinth. Which led to my accreditation as a labyrinth facilitator.

Sydney Labyrinth in the Rain

So, then I was in Scotland, walking to the center of a hand-drawn classical labyrinth on a wind swept beach next to the Atlantic Ocean. In the center I greeted the four directions and heard the word _ home! You are home.

And I was home: home on this island and more significantly home in the center of the labyrinth. This labyrinth and all labyrinths – the labyrinth is my home – the labyrinth is my work. Although I already knew the labyrinth was home, this experience has been profound and I know that I will continue to work with labyrinths. From this point I felt renewed, returning again as in all labyrinth walks – I stepped out into my life.

My journey through the UK was a solo modern day pilgrimage. Each labyrinth showed me something about myself and taught me some history and use of labyrinths. In Spain I built a labyrinth with my friend on her property and visited labyrinths in the north. By the time I left Europe I’d walked 19 labyrinths in 3 weeks. The journey ended at Chartres Cathedral – totally unplanned in the beginning, but it became stronger and stronger that I should complete the journey there – and it just worked out.

An inspiring day spent alone among strangers. I reveled in being there, the history- this is the one! I walked the labyrinth three times and the lunations – I sat and watched how others interacted with the labyrinth – I took tours of the cathedral and chatted with strangers about their experience. The day I spent in Chartres has imbued me with a deep and gentle confidence about this work and how I can bring the labyrinth to others.

As a meditation teacher I have used the labyrinth as a tool on retreats. There has been wonderful and encouraging feedback from participants about their experience.

Facilitation brings me great inner joy as I introduce and hold space for others meeting the labyrinth for the first or maybe 100th time. It is humbling and I always learn more. I love that the labyrinth is accessible for all people, from all walks of life, cultures, religious backgrounds and ages. I have found peace in the labyrinth- each walk offering a deeper understanding of the path and to myself. I find confidence in working with the labyrinth alone and in groups. I am natively shy and working the facilitation process has given me greater confidence in all aspects of my life.

I love facilitating walks I especially love that the labyrinth is spiritual and not religious. This is important to me and in my work since 80% of the Australian community identify as non-religious. Labyrinth walks provides a spiritually connected experience so deeply craved in our community. I have learned it is a powerful, ancient and profound wisdom that works both strongly and subtly. Labyrinth brings peace and balance though personal and group reflection. As a facilitator I have learned to hold the energy of the walk and been amazed at how much love flows through me towards my walkers even if I don’t know them. I have been privileged to share some profound moments with strangers and continue to do so.

In negation with Campbelltown Council who built a labyrinth on Dharawal Land. I raised $8,000 and spoke to community groups. I ran workshops to create 108 tiles to ring the labyrinth. Facilitating labyrinth walks, at the university, in Campbelltown community, at the Sydney labyrinth or on retreats has deepened my sense of connection with community and the earth.

Campbelltown Community Labyrinth

In my role at the Western Sydney University Multi-faith Center Chaplaincy, as a pagan Chaplin, we created a temporary labyrinth and worked a ritual for the autumn equinox as students headed into their studies.

I have also made several other temporary labyrinths in my garden, at retreats, an orphanage in Kenya and a friends pace in Spain. I love how they make themselves and how excited everyone is to participate. That they flow that children run them – everywhere!

My journey with the labyrinth has changed me – it has brought me into the public eye, into local media. It has provided me with a tool to connect with community that is inclusive, non-threatening and healing. It has given me confidence and taken me to places I never would have dreamed of. It has connected me to people all over the world. Most importantly it has provided me with a deepening sense of the divine. Of truth in ways that as yet I cannot articulate. At times I think –“am I crazy?” then it seems not. In many ways it challenges who I think and know myself to be – in a kind and gentle way that is making me feel more myself, stronger and connected.

I am in awe of the power and the mystery of the labyrinth and deeply moved that it has called to me. I know that I will continue to work it’s mysteries. Labyrinth work can bring deep, deep healing experiences, it is a tool for peace: internal and community. In my journey with the labyrinth I have sung and chanted, made offerings to the land, listened to the wisdom of my grandmothers and I have been silent. Always, always I know more and more, I have learned that Iife, every life in all its forms is sacred. Walking the labyrinth can, in its most profound manner connect to that knowing, create a connection to the divine.

Now living in Broken Hill (Wilyakali Land) one of the first things I have done was to create a labyrinth. Each evening in the lengthening shadows of the hot summer days I layed stones to create a desert labyrinth. It has helped introduce me and anchor myself to this land. I am grateful for its wisdom.

Broken Hill Labyrinth is progress

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The girl who loved Ravens

There was once a girl who loved ravens.

It seemed nobody but ravens really understood. Many ravens lived in her town.
Some days there were so many, it seemed they owned it. Dark shapes circling the sky or sitting sentinel on lamp posts. Caws and arghhs heard above suburban traffic. Strong beaks and clever minds investigated rubbish bins, opened remnants of fast-food meals scattered along the streets. Big glossy purple-blue-black birds with watchful, white eyes and ruffled necks. Many people feared the ravens as underworld messengers, tricksters or harbingers of death. The girl knew them as her friend.

Some heard the spirits and the ancestors in the raven’s call. Their caws that seemed to draw wisdom from the past and neck-stretched arghhs that reached forward into the future soothed the girl. She loved their ruffled necks, their strong beaks and their enquiring bright, white eyes. Many did not understand raven, but the girl did. She sought out their wisdom.

The girl saw where they built nests, high up in the eucalypts. She delighted in their twig-gathering antics and sat for hours as they collected material for their sticky homes. Negotiating long pieces through narrow passages between the branches and leaves. Pulling finer strings from human detritus for the softer, inner lining of their solid nests. Later, she enjoyed the parents teaching young ones. How the comical, dark-eyed ravens played and learned to fly in the old died-back tree behind her house.

An old man lived in the town, strange to the world in his manner; he loved the earth and the ways of birds. His wild garden called them. The ravens built a nest in the tall trees. The old man knew lots about birds, about many things. He had books and a mind full of ideas and facts. He noticed the girl watching the ravens in his trees. He talked with her and, over time, they became friends.

The old man taught her what he knew about ravens and let her look in his books. He explained how ravens would dunk food in water before eating, that humans considered them among the most intelligent of birds. He talked of science and studies and research.

She taught him how to move his body with the ancient science if Qi Gong. It eased some of the pain of his old age and he was grateful. Aged bones and muscles restricted his freedom to explore the streets. The girl’s reports of birds and trees were welcome to his ears. When she told him how ravens talked to her, the old man dismissed such fanciful ideas. However, he appreciated her visits and developed a fondness for her; after all, they both had a deep love and understanding of nature.

Despite the old man’s dismissal, the ravens knew the girl. They cawed gently to each other and to her as she walked the streets; they visited her home and seemed to wait for her at the crossroads.

The girl didn’t always understand people. They had not always been kind and she felt sometimes deeply sad and troubled. Betrayed by some she trusted, she sought solace and comfort in the natural world’s abundance. With her faithful dog, she wandered the banks of the great river that wrapped one side of her town. It was easy to escape suburbia and people.

Here she connected with the earth she loved, trees and breezes, storms and clouds, the moon and stars. To feel the seasons on her skin and twirl with the wind and rain and fire. Delight in the reflection of the sun in the water as it moved between the rocks of the great kymea. Her favourite thing was to walk to that great river and listen, far away from the human world.

Some said the girl lived between the worlds, that she was not of this world. In some ways that was true and in other ways not.

On days when she was particularly troubled and sat alone in the park, picking at the green grass and wishing she could sink into the earth, the ravens came and sat at a respectful distance, cocking their heads as if to say: “Are you okay?” She welcomed their comfort and love – felt safe.

When the tree-eating madness moved through the streets, making way for new houses, she cried. When old trees, seeded pre-colinisation, were munched in the great metal jaws, she rolled in pain, clutching her belly. When creatures died by car she winced, and tears rolled. She spoke words of sorry. Her pain and distress could not be consoled. Not even the whispering of the breeze in the trees brought comfort. She was so afraid.

The old man shook his head, saddened too by what he saw.

A deep, dark, seductive veil of sadness descended around her– so deep it seemed even the birds died in her wake. She found dead birds everywhere: magpies, peewees, small birds, white cockatoos, even ravens. They were dropping from the sky. She felt she should bury the dead but, afraid to touch their still bodies, left them to the ants and maggots. Unable to help, the disquiet became a restless sadness, rumbling deep in her stomach.

Some said it meant there would be a change in her life, that the birds symbolised old parts of her dropping away, that she was transforming. She considered more sinister explanations: they were an omen spelling the destruction of not just her life, but all life.

She pleaded with the skies: “Why are the birds dying?”
The old man said maybe it was the drought, the fires, pesticides or maybe they were just old like him – we all go eventually.

At times, she felt she was looking into a void, the great expanse of emptiness.
At other times, falling in and through it, or just floating in its peaceful nothingness. How could she come back? But the ravens were there. They said she must grow strong, wide, raven wings to traverse the void.

The old man became frail and unwell. She knew he would soon die. She was afraid to see him. Afraid to look death in the eye. She stayed away too long. Then, when she heard that he lay dying, she gathered her courage. She sat by his bed and held his hand. He died peacefully.

After that she was less afraid of death, for she knew the void. The ravens had lent her their wings.

Dead birds stopped following her.

She began to change – grow in strength and confidence. Find more profound ways to honour the earth. With her voice she spoke of the harm humans had done to her and to the land. She wrote letters to the papers about the destruction of trees in the neighbourhood. She asked her friend to join her in cleaning up the waterways, the bottles, papers and other things left in the bush. She began to roar. She stood with her friends in protest at the felling of the forests and the rising seas. The ravens cawed and arghhed and clicked – they were her friends. She sang to the earth and honoured the ancestors. With drum in hand and dog behind, she cawed and arghhed to the earth and it called back. The ravens were there. They followed her. She sang of them.

The earth knew her and nurtured her. Caves along the river wrapped their folded layers of sandstone around her, held her, to whisper secrets of transformation and survival.

But still, she didn’t quite trust the world.

A woman in the town was kind and helpful. She tried to help the girl negotiate the ways of the world. The woman understood her pain and struggle to be in the world but did not know the raven’s song.

One afternoon, the girl saw a dead bird in the woman’s garden – the body of the hugest raven she had ever seen. The still bird’s neck ruffles stirred in the breeze, the legs clawed shut, the recognizance ants trailed darkly towards it. Its white eye dulled in death.

The girl stood frozen in disbelief, fearing the underworld would open up to consume her. She asked the ravens for support.

She told the woman about the dead raven in the garden, but she didn’t seem concerned. She fussed about making tea, rustling biscuit packages, chatting about human world things like rent, employment and food. They drank their tea and talked.

The sound started slowly. The familiar cawing and arghhing … but somehow different. The girl noticed it first. As the intensity grew, she remembered the old man had told her about this. Now she couldn’t believe it was happening. The woman put down her tea and moved to the window.

“What’s that noise?” she asked, pulling back the curtain.
“It’s the ravens,” the girl said gently, knowingly.

Outside, the ravens were gathering, ten, twenty, thirty on the fence and roof. More settled on the telegraph poles, their long throat feathers stirred by the wind.

“We have to bury the bird,” the girl said.

“They have come for a funeral. They want to bury their friend.”
Cautiously, the woman moved through the door. The sky was thick with big black wings and the noise was unbelievable.

“It’s like a scene from Hitchcock’s ​Birds​,” the woman said in awe.

Now there were fifty ravens and more coming. The girl stood in the garden amazed. She looked up to the sky, arms outstretched, twirling this way and that, the cawing and arghhing filling her ears.

Spade in hand, the woman began to make a hole in her garden bed. It was an enormous bird as large as a cat. The girl wished the old man was here. The birds cawed and arghhed, latecomers circling in the street.
Together the woman and the girl lifted the still bird into the hole. The girl spoke words of farewell. They carefully piled soil over the body and when the last feather was hidden – SILENCE. As one, the birds were quiet. What had been a full-throated chorus of raven voices opened into the great silence of late afternoon suburbia.

The woman and the girl looked at each other.
“I dont understand!” the woman said. There was fear in her eyes. “what had just happened?”

Slowly, the birds began to leave, cawing gently, big wings flapping deliberately against the fading light. The girl imagined the old man and the giant raven waving goodbye as they flew away.

“It’s okay,” the girl said, putting her hand on the woman’s arm. “It’s ravens – I love ravens.”

I went to the river

Sleeping out new moon 13 Feb 2021

Doing! Doing! Doing!

Against the shadow of grief

There is not enough water to grow new trees

When the old ones leave , who will hold the water ways?

What then?

I went to the river – the water was green, thick with the dust of land , floodwater green of water new to the system, algae green – they ( the cotton farmers) have graciously just increased the flow but the water level is like covering the front step of a four storey building. Be grateful they say. I went to the lake – it was green – with grass- how pretty they say…

There are weirs, there are systems, there are allocations.

Along the river there are so many bones of fish, from the great death event last summer, where the algal bloom took the oxygen from the water and took the life of thousands of fish including hundred year old fish that had survived so many droughts. It went viral. But the fish died. I found the body of a fish , ants feasting on the bank. I feel to make an artwork of the fish – to honour the fish. I take my camera and make photos to be used later. Studying the dead fish and the way the ants are eating it – I feel a presence behind, and I turn to see there in the middle of the river a huge fish is in the air. Just a second, but I see it and I know it sees me. I am startled ,heart racing. I call out Hello! A cool breeze moves up the river and seems to wrap around me. I have found my teacher, my guide.

I collect rubbish _ including discarded fishing line. I follow the river in the car and practice 4WD. Think of bringing Sal and Jess and others here. There is a forest along the river but its tired. I stop beneath the biggest mother-of-fuck trees and bow before them. Old ,old gnarled  trunks – so over awed I stare.

Across the desert plains to a picnic spot on the edge of the once was lake, trees skeletal, dead, mighty trees. A few old beings hold on to life and the deep once banks. There is not enough water to grow new trees

When the old ones leave , who will hold the water ways?

I am in a caravan park where once water lapped a shore. I didn’t pay to stay because there was nobody to pay. The “we are open sign” had blown onto the ground and collected red sand mud from recent storms. The kiosk sign faded; the “office” deserted. The big sign said Menindee Lake.

I walked to the lake edge and watched the new moon settle down into the horizon. I made notes for my painting. I walk back in starlight and am grateful for the light coloured sand that leads the way.

I slept beneath the stars, the milky way that the ancestors of the  ancestors knew.

I looked – I kept being called to the hunter – Orion’s belt- again and again- because that is what I knew- I craved to know more.

I fell asleep wandering if we see the milky way the same all year round. At different times of night at different seasons. I can’t remember. If feels like there is not enough time to remember.

What are the stars I know? Marvelling at seeing the 3D nature of the milky way. Shooting stars . Thinking about perspective. Where is Emu? Trying to see everything in my head. Seeing new constellations

I wake in the night with the words  “listen to the words of the great mother, who of old was known as Artemis, Dianna, Ahrionrod,  …. And by many other names. I struggle to remember and  to list them in order . I see the goddess in the stars as never before.

I awake in the night  -Ants  have invaded the sleeping bag . Marvel at the white milkiness of the night sky – how the big dipper really is full of starry milk. I wonder if the Pleiades is the little dipper or that small constellation near Orion. I can’t remember; my vision blurry.

Awake in the night I think of water flows and allocations, weirs and dams upstream. I see the silhouettes of tree skeletons against the starry sky. I think of cotton.

My body on the earth, feels the strain, the effort to survive.

The eastern sky is lightening when I awake again. The stars above me are completely changed. The southern cross now high in the sky. I struggle to recall what I know about the axis of the stars. What lay north south after sunset now seems east west . I am totally confused.

I wake to the pied butcher bird song and sunlight.

There is deep sorrow in my bones that I seem to have absorbed from the land overnight ,that is blending with the missing of my father. There is unexpected grief. It’s not that it was an easy relationship- but he taught me this – how to see and read the world, the birds and rock and trees. I miss those conversations. In the year before he died we used to talk about the lakes and look up the level on the dams across NSW. When we first started Menindee was at 0.7% and now, despite the floods up north that should be filling it –  it’s at 18% . He would shake his head.

Over east this is all so far away, and cotton is better than synthetics isn’t it?

 I love the Barkka, having visited its banks in Wilcannia for more the 40 years. In the 2000’s I stepped across this mighty river that once supported river boats. I cried – there are no words that describe that feeling.

You see, I was born upstream . the first water I played in was from this system. On the Gwydir – in Kamilaroi country.

I feel so powerless – what can be done. I doubt that I should be living out here. But the spirts all say stay , yes ,yes, live lightly, live well.

There is a place on the highway, a slight rise and a layby. 30klm from Broken Hill. I must remember to come here and watch the stars; the horizon is huge. I pull over- there is a tree. I walk towards the tree and see the ground is littered with plastics, so many shapes and forms. At least I can collect the garbage and put in the roadside bin, that eases the sadness somewhat. I gather seeds from beneath that fruit laden Wilga tree- when I return home I scatter them in my garden.

Remembering Mum in the Rain

It’s a wet winter day in Sydney

3pm, that time after lunch before the rush hour, the streets are empty – office workers huddled behind steel and glass – hovering on the floors above the city. Looking out on grey skies…

I’m looking for a café food place that won’t serve me plastic with my meal- I think I’ve found one , and sit down and order a coffer and sandwich. The coffee is less than hot and the sandwich is encased in plastic…. I pull out my computer and type…

I just got new teeth – upper denture and I bite into my afternoon tea! Its the first time in weeks I can bite without fear of cracking my denture into two pieces. Eating has been a forced exercise in mindfulness!

Walking the wet streets I’d recalled my mother and thought of the days I pottered along behind her and Aunt M – looking for a little café to have a coffee and a sit down. These were tiring and long days – catching the steamer from Campbelltown and later the red rattler. Mum always liked a coffee and a sit down and when with Aunt M there was always so much to talk about. I used to have an orange juice – if it was fresh or a milkshake. Either way both were always too much and made me feel sick…

Today it’s a mocha on skim….

When I was young Mum’s favourite was Vienna coffee. Wide brown coffee cups with lashings of whipped piped cream piled above the coffee. In later more health conscious years cappuccino was the go. The last cap I bought her went cold on the bedside table of her deathbed… as we fought with our father to let her have what she wants and not what is good for her …

Today I recall our many trips to “town” for shopping or a museum or gallery visit. Sometimes to go to David Jones for shoes and jumpers or the Strand Arcade boutiques where Mum would try on smart suits and dresses suitable for an Infants School Principal – The Infant’s Mistress as she was called.

A favoured task was looking for hand-bags, she had many handbags. “Handbags” she said “should always match the shoes”. Or browsing in Dymocks or Angus and Robertsons, where she would stock up on crayons and stars, stamps, coloured paper and colouring books for her classes. She didn’t really approve of colouring books, “they stifle creativity” she said, but we often got one to take away on holidays. As a treat! I liked the magic ones that changed colour when a wet brush was wiped across them. Sometimes it was Christmas shopping and on a few rare occasions a trip to the movies or even a live show.

When Aunt M was in town we might follow the day with a meal at the Masonic Club or even the Menzies Hotel. For a real treat and family special occasions we ate at the Australia Square Tower or the Opera house.

Today sloshing through the rainy streets, with my new teeth, I think of Mum and how much I’d love to just have a coffee with her and a bit of a chat. She had false teeth all her life – they removed them all when she was 17. “They did that sort of thing back then” she’d said.

I remember when we went shopping to buy me “suitable clothes for practise teaching”. In search of a compromise between my preference for overalls and gum-boots and what might be suitable for a teacher to wear. It was a beautiful grey linen suit that smelled of India, flowers embroidered on the double collars with a longer than normal skirt- it was the 70’s after all.

Sometimes when we went into the city there would be vegemite sandwiches to eat from home. Sometimes savoury mince when we met up with Dad after his day at Teachers Federation Council meetings. On other occasions, tucked away somewhere in a small restaurant: Chicken Maryland was a favourite of Mum’s. Toasted cheese and tomato sandwiched or thick cheesy asparagus door-steps. She liked nice food and was always introducing us to something new and contemporary.

Today I am sad, the streets seem more empty as I recall her swishing skirts and Aunt M’s Scottish brogue. Many memories wash around me as I drink my mocha and eat my egg sandwich. The city was a special place with my mother, always a sense of adventure, of being important – of seeing another side of her – a free spirit, a bit naughty, a supportive adult who enjoyed life.

Road Kill

I’m living in a war zone.

Casualties everywhere..

I recently drove from my home in SW Sydney to country Victoria. Along the Hume Motorway, the major transport corridor between Sydney and Melbourne.

Hundreds of semi-trailers and V-doubles move along the road each day , families and business people, traders and travellers. Double lanes, dual highway snakes and then stretches out through the landscape, bypassing towns . Traveler stops and multinational feeding stations providing the high fat/sugar meals we crave as we hurdle across the country on our important business.

It’s a death littered journey. Victims to our invasion of their country line the road, sentinels to our passing trade.

Every kilometer Kangaroos dead on the roadside , taken out by high speed transporters, so many I give up counting. There were wombat, echidna, fox, possum and lizard – a children’s story book of characters. Birds too fall victim to the road, raven, magpie ,cockatoo , galah , gang-gang and eagle.

In places the road is red with the veneer of flattened roo, or bird. I feel sick. In others there is just a mangled pile of fur . We are traveling too fast to stop and clear the road and eventually they too will be mashed into the tarmcack and washed away by rain -forgotten.

I recall a trip between Tamworth and Bingara a couple of years ago when I pulled 18 Kangaroos from the roadside in 160 kilometers . I hate to see bodies being mashed to a pulp by passing vehicles.

Off the highway a shower of feathers as the car in front hits a galah.

“Idiot?” i shout to noone.

I stop the car and walk back along the road. The world is silent without cars. Ravens call. I pick up the bird still warm from life and place it away from the verge. As i turn a car stops and the blokey driver leans across and asks “is it alive? ”

“No” I shake my head.

“I could have taken it to a vet in town if it was alive” he offered.

We both shake our heads and move on.

Allies! I recall the galah’s one red tear and wonder how it’s mate is.

From time to time there is a vehicle up-turned and taped beside the road, evidence of human casualty in this war.

It’s a long weekend I’m traveling. I consider what the road would look like if the local council protrolls didn’t come along to collect the fallen. Would the roadsides be piled high with carnage and the stench of death be the aroma that followed us down the road?

Back home the tree munchers are at work. Each week we witness a couple of hours of tree crunching as another of the huge trees is munched to pulp. The wood chipper shouts out across the suburb. Screaming it’s superiority and ability to destroy a huge tree and all that lives in it in less than an hour.

The magpies and ravens have lost their homes. They circle around – their territories disturbed. I revel in the magpie family that has taken up in the trees near me and pray nobody decides to take them down.

My father’s cleaner tells him how a wagtail nest was lost when her neighbor cut down a tree unthinking. The community is aghast and nobody really understands or can give a reason why these huge trees, some pre-white invasion suddenly need to go.

I realize I have a new sort of anxiety about me as i scan the suburb , watchful and vigilant for the next tree to go. Fearful for the sound of wood-chippers and chain saws.

Pesticide spraying vehicles cruise our suburban streets, the council weed killer patrol walks by.

We are at war with nature .

This is not how I wish to live .

Walking Labyrinths in the U.K.

Searching for Labyrinths have taken me through deep green forests with mighty old trees, wetlands, mountain passes and roads that seem to wind along the edge of the world .

Past newly ploughed fields and those with crops just harvested , fields of Wheat, barley, corn, potatoes, and quinola

Along narrow hedge lined ,tree arched and brick wall lined lanes, through tiny villages with nowhere to stop or turn.

Along motorways with turnoffs to places I have read or heard about . Negotiated complex motorway round abouts (why doesn’t the sat nav have a “well done ” comment?)

Driven through the wild open sheep nibbled highlands of Scotland , marbled purple and green with heather and moss ; along steep winding roads and been amazed by the wide open vistas of the North Sea and rugged coastlines?

I have felt held by the folds of the earth and marveled at wide flat valleys carved by ancient ice rivers. Stood breathless at the far reaching moors of Yorkshire and the Scottish landscape threaded with mysterious lochs that are mirrors to the sky .

Stood on the prow the ferry to Islay with the wind lashing my face.

I’ve seen seals, squirrels red and grey,

Snails, grouse, ladybirds and toads

Been accompanied each day by collared doves and swarms of swallows

there’s been ducks tails up in streams and ponds, whistling eagles overhead and a pair of falcons drifting on the updraft

Wild swans with babies in the sea and red deer in the wheat fields

Ive seen hedgehogs, owls, raven,rabbits and deer dead on the sides of roads

And Cheered tiny shrews as they scurried their way across the busy highways

Wild flowers I’ve only known as weeds cover the landscape and villages festooned with potted flowers shout summer!

I nibbled wild raspberries and blackberries as I’ve wandered tracks and lanes

Stood by ancient standing stones and on top of Iron Age forts

Sat with ancient oaks

Walked a river in Alness looking for otters , visited A sacred well on the Black Isle near Inverness, tromped across the heather and moss covered hills in Scotland and drank from steams , lit a candle for mum in the the Lincoln Catherdal and had fish and chips in a pub.

Been too terrified to sleep in a highway wayside car park where cars were coming and going in the night. Slept like a lion next to lochs and in forests

I’ve avoided cities and major tourist spots. Cooked amazing meals in the van . Enjoyed glorious views on wild mountain tops and beaches.

I’ve lost my way and found it again.

Driven for days with only the voices in my head or the sat nav for company.

Every day I’ve walked a labyrinth in sun , rain or wind, though mostly sun. Some ancient some new. If I couldnt find one nearby I made one myself (westcoast Islay – below)

Ive enjoyed the precious company of some dear friends and family along the way

And had enlightening chance encounters and conversations with strangers

Picked up rubbish in highway byways

Ghost net on beaches ,cried at forest harvesting.

Created a ghost net dolly on Islay and knitted a beanie

Sometimes I’ve wanted to give up thought I was crazy yet I carried on.

I’ve felt distracted by the world and come back to my plan to walk a labyrinth a day for 12 days.

I’ve thought of my family and friends and all the things I do.

I have found peace in the labyrinth – it is my home – each walk offering a deeper understanding of the path and myself.

I’ve sung and chanted , made offerings to the land and listened to the wisdom of my grandmothers and I have been silent .

Always always I know more and more that life, every life, in all its form is sacred. Where this path will take me I have no idea but it is taking me somewhere and I honor that.

Susanne Rae

Below are some of my Faves

Dunure Ayrshire

Glastonbury Cathedral

Alkborough Lincolnshire

Hilton Common Cambridgeshire

Crystal Palace community garden

Batheaston – Hill Fort

Dalby North Yorkshire

Dundee Hospital